not-quite.org

In my quest for perfection I have stumbled across the “why don’t you make lists in an effort to procrastinate but really get some things accomplished without realizing it” way of things. It’s fucking brilliant! I’m becoming more efficient as time goes on. I knew that spending so much time with The Russian was a good thing.

Basically it all comes down to is figuring me out in a roundabout way. Some say it’s the more direct approach but I’ve always been the contrary one. I read a lot of blogs (duh) and I came across a post on Chookoolonks about writing your goals down in prophecy form. This post made me wander her site a bit. Some other awesome posts are about finding what you love and “putting love, goals, and journaling together”. These posts have led to some minor research and have landed me at some more great websites with inspirational ideas. All of which is helping me pull my shit together in one way or another.

I have updated my life list over at jakapi as a result of this whole whatever you want to call it. I’ll also be updating with other pages soon.

I’m currently trying to learn how to be perfect. Needless to say, it’s not going very well.

It doesn’t help that I got started on a new medication that’s messing everything up. I was having stroke symptoms over the weekend. Ended up being on the phone with doctors all Saturday, in the weekend clinic on Sunday, and have two more appointments scheduled. The diagnosis was hyperventilation but since a side effect of the new med is sudden death, I have to do the doctor dash (see my primary doc to rule out a bunch of other stuff and then see my psychiatrist who prescribed the med to reevaluate things).